to be a part.

i'm settled for today
but not for my tomorrow.
my head is spinning
but my heart is full.

i give up on the search
for signs & the light,
finding solace in me
from surface to core.
inside, out.

my feet are planted
but the roots are weakening,
my confidence struggles
yet my spirit shines.

i won't rely on the world
to hold my hand,
can't trust the unknown
to make peace again.

its all part of being,
feeling like you matter.
finding beauty in chaos
and delight in reality.

its growing and learning
and we wake with the choice:
to just be
or to be a part.

part of each day
and part of humanity.

realizing that every action
and choice for today
will reflect the most honest
part of you,
tomorrow.

written 03.19.09 on a run